Thursday, October 23, 2014

Cover And Blurb Reveal For "IKIGAI.", Our October 31st!

After a month's worth of delays, we finally have an official release date, cover, and blurb for "IKIGAI.", the final (for at least a really long time) book in the REN'AI RENSAI series.

This book is a bit of a monster in the sense that it's the longest book I have yet to release, clocking in at just a little over 100k. (For reference, most full-length RR releases are between 70-90k, standard novel lengths.) And with a long book we also get the longest blurb yet. Usually we try to keep it down to a certain amount, but for the last book we decided to just go for it.

Below is the cover and blurb for "IKIGAI.", coming out October 31st! (Spooky.)

“People say that we change as we get older. My biggest fear was that I would wake up one day and no longer be in love with Reina. Instead I woke up one day with urges that took me to the very kind of people she couldn’t even think about.”

Aiko almost has the perfect life. A strong marriage, a fun part-time job teaching English, and a healthy social life that keeps her stimulated in more ways than one. But she’s changing. For the first time in years, there is someone she is falling for… and it’s not someone her spouse would approve of. 

How can she truly be happy if she’s repressing a part of what makes her tick?

“I haven’t changed in over twenty-five years. This includes most of my opinions. Except I don’t have popular opinions about anything. Take gender for example. I know I’m messed up, but it could be worse. I could really hate my body to the point I can’t live in it anymore. Not even my wife understand thats. But somebody else does.”

Reina has come far in her therapy, but nothing can change the fact sometimes she can’t face the way the world treats her because of her body. When she searches for someone who understands her, she meets another woman dealing with gender dysphoria.  A woman whose dysphoria has taken her to a place Reina is still afraid to traverse. 

It’s taken twenty years for Reina and Aiko to seal their relationship. Now the years have caught up to them and they must decide what their “ikigai,” or their reason for living is. Friends come and go; lovers can be finicky; family is what they make of it. 

Their final hurdle in life, love, and sexuality will determine now and forever who they will spend the rest of their lives with. And they want so badly for it to be each other.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

One Year Closer To Death And More Taxes

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Yesterday was my birthday. (Yes, it was lovely, thanks!) I turned the absolutely no1curr 27, which makes me happy because I quite like the number 27. (Plus I've been thinking I'm 27 for about six months now. Finally, I'm right!)

The reason I feel some great need to share this is NOT to get belated birthday wishes, but because I have a good feeling that this next year of my life will be pretty great. Considering some of the prizes I have to announce coming up soon (yes, soon!) I can't help but feel like some good things are going to happen!

Of course, I have a sinking feeling that certain terrible things may happen, but let's not think about that right now...

What I have been thinking about lately, however, is the image I had of my adult life as a child. What I mean is, when I was a child, I often imagined what my twenties would be like. Suffice to say, my twenties have not been anything like I imagined as a kid. Of course that's true for just about everybody, but for me in particular, it's been negatively different. For every decent thing that has happened these past seven years, three awful things have happened.

I don't say this for pity. In fact, I want the opposite, if I were to get anything. But it's weird to think of what I thought my twenties would be like and then actually experience most of them so far.

Out of the things I have accomplished so far, however, I am very proud for achieving my dream of being a full time writer and author. This is exactly what I've been wanting to do with my life. And now that I'm finally taking better control of my life, it can only get better! Or so I hope.

Naturally, though, I'm mostly glad I don't even care about my birthday anymore. Means if I have any crappy ones in the future, I won't care!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

OUT NOW! Healing Submission: Tales of Hurt and Comfort Anthology (Only 99 Cents!)

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I'm super excited to announce that "SEIKOU." has made it into a great new anthology called HEALING SUBMISSION: Tales Of Hurt And Comfort. Published by erotic romance giant Excessica, it features ten stories about learning to love and trust through submission... oh, and getting over those pesky traumas that plague us.

"SEIKOU." has been truncated into a novella called Dysphoria. As far as I know it's the only lesbian story, but the other novels in this REALLY CHEAP (!!!) collection are definitely worth checking out!

Please take a look at the full summary below. Oh, and the Rafflecopter afterward ;)


Safety. Security. Trust. Discipline.

How do you heal a shattered heart? With their dominants' masterful handling and unique approaches to comfort, these lovers with hurt and trauma in their pasts get another chance at finding the love they deserve.

This boxed set contains ten novels from bestselling D/s romance authors including NYT/USA Today bestsellers Anna Antonia, Adriana Hunter, Selena Kitt and Linda Barlow. Some books are from existing series, but each book stands alone - no cliffhangers!

Mastering Meg by Saskia Walker: 
When Piers finds Meg's secret stash of BDSM material he sees the way to unbuckle her and win her heart. Meg is wildly aroused, but getting her to admit that is going to be his biggest challenge!

Force Majeure by Arden Aoide: The mind of Jeff Rainier is remarkable and strange. It separates him from true intimacy. Until Evan. She revels in his obsessive nature and captivating idiosyncrasies. Can he trust her affections?

The Dangerous Hero by Linda Barlow: Stephen and Viola had amazing sex 9 years ago, and the chemistry is still sizzling when they meet again. But after an abusive marriage, can she trust a man whose home contains a dungeon?

Catching Caitlin by Amy Isan: Hugh Evans
. He's not the man I remember, but more powerful. He walked up to me in the dumpy bar. The speakers bled while he licked salt off my drink. A sly grin and twinkle in his eye.

Her Two Doms by Adriana Hunter:
 When Sebastian invites Brooke to his club and introduces her to his best friend Jax, things quickly heat up. But what happens when they find themselves wanting more than just her submission?

Trust by Anna Antonia:
 Nicola Dawson was once married but the severe emotional neglect left her feeling broken and unloved. When she meets handsome neurosurgeon Henry Kain it's her chance to learn to live and love again...

Coming Clean by Selena Kitt: When divorced Donnie hires Elena as a housekeeper, he has no idea the dark desires she will inspire in him, or the dark past he will help her overcome. (Note to readers: This is an extended version of Donnie and the Maid) 

Lost in His Woods by Penelope L'Amoreaux: 
She woke close to death in the snow. He saved her, but struggles to give her what she craves: comfort. Tolik and Clare's journey take them through dark, sensual depths, and a thrilling adventure.

Dysphoria by Hildred Billings: A woman dealing with severe gender dysphoria approaches her wife to help her become more submissive. Unlearning twenty years' worth of repression, however, does not come without its sacrifices.

Not Your Damn Dom by Amy Valenti: After a disastrous mistake, Spencer swears off BDSM forever. When he falls in love again, he battles the urge to introduce Alex to his Dom side. Can he trust himself with a submissive's safety again?

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Friday, September 5, 2014

Update On 2014 Release Schedule

So, there's no denying that I disappeared for a little while there! Last you heard from me, I was in the midst of moving. Surprise! I'm still in the midst of moving. It's been a long, ongoing process that will hopefully come to an end soon.

Couple this with a super big project going on in the background here, and things have been a bit delayed! Therefore I am having to update the remaining release schedule for 2014 under this name.

As of right now this is how things stand:

REN'AI RENSAI BOOK 7: "IKIGAI." - Very late September/Early October (Actual release date forthcoming)

JIAI JOUWA BOOK 3: (Currently Untitled) - Late December (Which would make it almost one year to the day since Book 2!)


The aforementioned standalone sweet romance "THE LONGEST RIVER" will be my first project of 2015.

The reasons for this switch-around extend to more than just my move holding things up. "IKIGAI." was mostly finished when I decided that it wasn't exactly what I wanted for the final book of RR. I ended up going back and retooling a bunch of it so it fits better with the vision I had. I am determined to put out only the best possible story to round-off the main RR series, and I'm excited to share it with you later this month! Suffice to say, cover and blurb reveal will be happening soon enough!

Thanks for your understanding as we restructure some things around here. Right now my main goal, besides what is going on with other aspects, is to finish up the RR universe this year. It's going to be both very bittersweet and a relief. I hope you'll be around for the ride!

Friday, June 27, 2014

OUT NOW: "JOSHOKU." Book 6 of Ren'Ai Rensai

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A year after "KOIBUMI.", I am now pleased to announce the return of the RR overworld series. "JOSHOKU." takes us back once again the 90s in Japan, focusing on the period of time when Reina and Aiko realize the true potential of their lives together.

Please enjoy the blurb and the excerpt below!

One year into their relationship, Reina and Aiko embark on a journey into the world of academia. For Reina it's about changing her situation in life, even it means returning to a world ran by a foreign religion and young women who claim to be both her best friends and worst enemies. For Aiko it's proving to her mother, to the world, and to herself that there is more to life than husband hunting. For them both it's late nights finding unconventional ways to study for tests as they find new reasons to love each other.

Adulthood lurks in every shadow, from coming to terms with mortality to straining against the shackles that threaten to keep their lives stagnant. Reina wants to find direction in her life; Aiko wants to control her own destiny. Together they want what will become the foundation of their relationship - love, safety, and the exploration of their burning joshoku, or the passion that leads one to women again and again. Even if one of them is an impostor herself.

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            “Excuse me,” Aiko said, stopping a saleswoman and holding up a green bra. “Does this come in any other color?”
            While the saleswoman took the bra to go look in the back, Reina dangled a silky black bra and panty set in front of Aiko.
            “You should get this one,” she said, jerking the hanger back and forth. “I bet you’d look really sexy in a piece like this.”
            Aiko glanced around the shop, only temporarily relieved when she saw no one paid them any mind. The cramped store was stuffed with racks of underwear and women talking over one another as the cars on the street drowned out their voices. Nothing could drown out Reina’s voice, however. It was right in Aiko’s ear, taunting her with that seductive tone that had once awakened her inner lesbian.
            “I need something practical.” Aiko tried to be collected, but whenever her girlfriend teased her like that, she turned into jelly. She busied her hands by flipping through a rack she had already inspected twice before. “That material would scratch my skin if I wore it all day.”
            “You’re not supposed to wear it all day. This is shit you wear to make you feel sexy and to make your girlfriend want to jump your bones.”
            “Like you need help with that.”
            The saleswoman came back with a pink version of the bra Aiko liked. “Would you like me to open a changing room for you?”
            “That would be great, thanks.”
            Reina stayed out of the changing area while Aiko was shown into the one at the far end of the hall. After locking the door, she stripped off her top and the one bra she had left that Reina had yet to destroy with her pawing. One strap drooped down her arm as she admired – as in criticized – her figure in the mirror.
            Have I gained weight? Aiko turned to her side and stuck her leg up in the air behind her. It made her back suck in and flatten her stomach. Maybe not. Skin stretched across her abdomen as she twisted it around to get a better look. By the time she decided she was not obese – yet – both of her bra straps had fallen down, reminding her of what she came in there for.
            Three bras hung from the door, each one the usual style and colors Aiko liked. When a woman knows what she likes... She hopped up and grabbed the pink bra she wanted.
            Trying on clothing of any kind was a test in patience. There was getting the damn things on; making sure they fit snugly, but not too snugly; checking to see that the color matched her skin tone; looking for any spots that would itch or irritate her later; turning in every direction to catch the best angles; pretending to be a model in a sexy magazine. Aiko spun on her heels and laughed in frivolity as someone pounded on the door.
            “I’m fine!” she called, assuming it was the saleswoman. “I’ll be out in a bit.”
            Another thump. “Ai-chan!” It was Reina. “Open up! I wanna show you something.”
            “Eh?” Aiko snatched her shirt and held it up to her chest. Slowly, as if the dressing room was full of people ready to check out her nipples, Aiko eased the door open and gazed at her girlfriend through the crack.
            Reina swung the door open and marched into the changing room, arm laden with bras.
            “Are you trying something on?” Aiko dropped her shirt and bent to pick it up again. When she stood, she saw her girlfriend latching the door shut, a sinister smile on her visage. “I didn’t think you wore...”
            The sexy black bra popped into her face. “I brought some stuff for you to try on.”
            “What? Me?” Aiko backed against the mirror. “I already have things to try on.”
            The black bra did a dance in the air, and puppet master Reina continued, “Nothing sexy.”
            “I’m not buying anything sexy like that.”
            “Aw, come on, you’re not even gonna try them on? How boring.” Reina dropped the bra to her side. I’m still not used to this haircut. If it weren’t for those thin lips and the usual clothes Reina wore, Aiko would not recognize her without long hair. “Not even for me?”
            “Why would I do it for you?”

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Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Trip To The Japanese 90s Day 2: Maki Ohguro

Maki Ohguro is one of those artists that you never really hear about, and yet left a huge impact on Japanese music in the 90s. Undoubetedly you've heard one of her songs before, even if you don't really remember it. Indeed, she used to be a pretty big thing in the mid-90s with her heavy pop-rock sound. You don't find many people who declare themselves to be Maki's biggest fan, and yet if you see her giving out a free concert (because she can, that's why) you think, "Oh, cool! Free Maki concert? I'm in. Let's go!"

The best way to describe her style is "heavy and loud," and yet she's not hard rock or metal at all. She's squarely in the pop-rock category, but like most of her fellow labelmates of the 90s (which include ZARD and B'z, just to namedrop a couple superstar names) she has that edge to her music that you just can't deny. Her songs are catchy and infectious, even if you don't think about them much.

I like to think of Reina in particular being that kind of Maki fan. She would buy some of her albums and play them as background noise, but she would never fan over her. (Not that she fans over anybody, but I digress.) These days she would definitely have some classic Maki tunes on her cell phone and listen to them during her commute on the train.

Actually, I take some of that back. I could see Reina watching Maki videos on TV and thinking, "Hm, I could go for a style like that." Not that she would ever commit to it.

Below is a video of all of Maki's 90s songs, a perfect sampling for our theme this week!

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Trip To The Japanese 90s Day 1: hitomi

I consider myself somewhat of an expert on Japanese pop 'n rock (colloquially referred to over there and abroad as "J-pop") and writing an extensive series that takes place through the decades in Japan and NOT expecting me to insert Japanese pop songs into every scene is next to impossible. At the REN'AI RENSAI website I even have a list of recommended listening soundtracks for every major novel.  One of my favorite decades of J-pop has to be the 90s. It was what I got into first back in 2003, and now it remains incredibly nostalgic (or as they say in Japan, natsukashii.

This week as we lead up to the release of "JOSHOKU." on Friday, I want to stop and listen to some tracks by artists that definitely influenced the 90s culture described in the book. These are artists and songs being played in the backgrounds of scenes - the CDs constantly falling off Reina and Aiko's shelves when they need some, er, mood music. 

Our first artist of the week is hitomi, a 90s pop idol who made her debut in 1994 with the Tetsuya Komuro (he is kind of a big deal people) written and produced track "Let's Play Winter." hitomi started her career as a model before quickly hitting superstardom in the 90s with her slickly produced dance tracks and heavy mid-tempo songs. She has a very unique voice even by J-pop standards, but it's absolutely infectious, just like her songwriting abilities and her tracks as she has matured through the years. (Yup, she's celebrating her 20th anniversary in the industry this year!)

I picked hitomi first for two reasons. 1) There is a new character in "JOSHOKU." named hitomi, and that's pretty funny. 2) I could see her first album getting a lot of spins in Aiko's room. Aiko really loves flashy, pretty, and charming female pop singers, and hitomi just jumps into my head as "the it girl" that Aiko would fawn over for a good 2-3 years. 

Below is hitomi's third and arguably most popular single "CANDY GIRL." I want you to imagine Aiko humming this to herself as she washes dishes today. Yes, today. Somewhere in RR land Aiko is washing some damned dishes and she is humming and singing "CANDY GIRL" and probably driving Reina nuts. Bless them both. 

I dare you to listen to this and not get it stuck in your head for a day too!