Showing posts with label New Release. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Release. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

OUT NOW: "Zutto." Book 3 of Jiai Jouwa

For two years Jun and Saya have slowly built a romantic relationship based on love and mutual respect. Although they come from vastly different backgrounds, their determination has helped them carve a home in Nagoya, the city in the heart of Japan.

They assumed it would last forever. Then Jun’s uncle Akihiro drops a surprise on them: they’re moving back to Sapporo, where Jun will finally assume the title of heir to her family’s hospitality empire.

It’s everything Jun has wanted since she began her career fifteen years ago. It’s everything Saya has feared.

Now back in Sapporo, Jun must navigate the anxious waters that will lead her to becoming chairman one day. And Saya must learn to cope with her new glamorous lifestyle, all while fighting back the loneliness that haunts Japan’s northernmost city.

Ex-lovers, new friends, and old drama all come together to put Jun and Saya through their biggest test yet. It’s not enough for them to want to be together zutto, or forever. They must find the one thing that brings and keeps them together the most - a thing more precious than love itself.

“ZUTTO.” takes place from January - June, 2015. 

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Saturday, January 3, 2015

Happy New Year! How About A Free Romance Novella?

FREE Until Jan 5th!
What better way to ring in the new year than with a free romance novella? When Chemistry Wins, the first part of THE DARK HORSE TRILOGY as written under my pen name Cynthia Dane is FREE through January 5th!

That's not all! Both it and its following stories, When Passion Flares and When Romance Prevails are free under KU. You can even pick up the full and complete box set for only $2.99. Awesome!

I mean, this is assuming you like hot and sexy contemporary romance. Also assuming you're okay with some sultry boy / girl action.

Cynthia Dane is a name I've been working hard on alongside my other writing projects. (If you are subscribed to my HB mailing list, then last night you should have received an exclusive preview of the final RR universe novel!) You can bet there will be a lot more to come in 2015 from all of my names!

Check out the whole Dark Horse Trilogy Below!
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Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Introducing Cynthia Dane, My New Contemporary Romance Pen Name

Some exciting news to share today! I have been working on a special writing project recently, which includes a new pen name and a debut in the contemporary romance world. Yes, folks. M/F. I know, right? Who knew.

My pen name in that world is Cynthia Dane, and most of my releases will be in serial format. My first release, When Chemistry Wins, is the first part of The Dark Horse Trilogy, which is basically Romeo & Juliet... but with modern politics!

Check it out!

“Two households, both alike in dignity; From ancient grudge break to new mutiny.” 

STAR-CROSSED LOVERS 

The Mitchells and the Halls are embroiled in the most heated gubernatorial election the state has ever seen.. Kerri Mitchell, the governor’s debutante daughter, yearns for a life free from her family’s controlling grasp. A life where her worth isn’t based on how vapid and innocent she can appear on the evening news. 

Hunter Hall doesn’t see eye-to-eye with his father, Governor Mitchell’s nemesis. He’s tired of the campaigning, the false promises, and the dirty mudslinging that comes with modern politics. And Hunter’s tired of having no one to share his life with. 

One fateful night brings these two souls together. One fateful night that changes the course of these two families’ fates forever. 

For when it comes down to it, will Kerri and Hunter choose their families… or love?

Friday, October 31, 2014

OUT NOW! "IKIGAI." Book 7 of REN'AI RENSAI

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"IKIGAI.", the seventh and final (for a long while at least) book of the REN'AI RENSAI series is now out! It's a whopping 100k words long and I hope you enjoy every single one. :) 

I'll have a more poignant post about the journey writing all seven books in this series up sometime next week. For now, please enjoy!

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"People say that we change as we get older. My biggest fear was that I would wake up one day and no longer be in love with Reina. Instead I woke up one day with urges that took me to the very kind of people she couldn't even think about."
Aiko almost has the perfect life. A strong marriage, a fun part-time job teaching English, and a healthy social life that keeps her stimulated in more ways than one. But she's changing. For the first time in years, there is someone she is falling for... and it's not someone her spouse would approve of. 
How can she truly be happy if she's repressing a part of what makes her tick?

"I haven't changed in over twenty-five years. This includes most of my opinions. Except I don't have popular opinions about anything. Take gender for example. I know I'm messed up, but it could be worse. I could really hate my body to the point I can't live in it anymore. Not even my wife understands that. But somebody else does."
Reina has come far in her therapy, but nothing can change the fact sometimes she can't face the way the world treats her because of her body. When she searches for someone who understands her, she meets another woman dealing with gender dysphoria. A woman whose dysphoria has taken her to a place Reina is still afraid to traverse. 

It's taken twenty years for Reina and Aiko to seal their relationship. Now the years have caught up to them and they must decide what their "ikigai," or their reason for living is. Friends come and go; lovers can be finicky; family is what they make of it. 

Their final hurdle in life, love, and sexuality will determine now and forever who they will spend the rest of their lives with. And they want so badly for it to be each other.

"IKIGAI." takes place from October, 2014 - February, 2015

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Wednesday, October 15, 2014

OUT NOW! Healing Submission: Tales of Hurt and Comfort Anthology (Only 99 Cents!)

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I'm super excited to announce that "SEIKOU." has made it into a great new anthology called HEALING SUBMISSION: Tales Of Hurt And Comfort. Published by erotic romance giant Excessica, it features ten stories about learning to love and trust through submission... oh, and getting over those pesky traumas that plague us.

"SEIKOU." has been truncated into a novella called Dysphoria. As far as I know it's the only lesbian story, but the other novels in this REALLY CHEAP (!!!) collection are definitely worth checking out!

Please take a look at the full summary below. Oh, and the Rafflecopter afterward ;)

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Safety. Security. Trust. Discipline.

How do you heal a shattered heart? With their dominants' masterful handling and unique approaches to comfort, these lovers with hurt and trauma in their pasts get another chance at finding the love they deserve.

This boxed set contains ten novels from bestselling D/s romance authors including NYT/USA Today bestsellers Anna Antonia, Adriana Hunter, Selena Kitt and Linda Barlow. Some books are from existing series, but each book stands alone - no cliffhangers!

Mastering Meg by Saskia Walker: 
When Piers finds Meg's secret stash of BDSM material he sees the way to unbuckle her and win her heart. Meg is wildly aroused, but getting her to admit that is going to be his biggest challenge!

Force Majeure by Arden Aoide: The mind of Jeff Rainier is remarkable and strange. It separates him from true intimacy. Until Evan. She revels in his obsessive nature and captivating idiosyncrasies. Can he trust her affections?

The Dangerous Hero by Linda Barlow: Stephen and Viola had amazing sex 9 years ago, and the chemistry is still sizzling when they meet again. But after an abusive marriage, can she trust a man whose home contains a dungeon?

Catching Caitlin by Amy Isan: Hugh Evans
. He's not the man I remember, but more powerful. He walked up to me in the dumpy bar. The speakers bled while he licked salt off my drink. A sly grin and twinkle in his eye.

Her Two Doms by Adriana Hunter:
 When Sebastian invites Brooke to his club and introduces her to his best friend Jax, things quickly heat up. But what happens when they find themselves wanting more than just her submission?

Trust by Anna Antonia:
 Nicola Dawson was once married but the severe emotional neglect left her feeling broken and unloved. When she meets handsome neurosurgeon Henry Kain it's her chance to learn to live and love again...

Coming Clean by Selena Kitt: When divorced Donnie hires Elena as a housekeeper, he has no idea the dark desires she will inspire in him, or the dark past he will help her overcome. (Note to readers: This is an extended version of Donnie and the Maid) 

Lost in His Woods by Penelope L'Amoreaux: 
She woke close to death in the snow. He saved her, but struggles to give her what she craves: comfort. Tolik and Clare's journey take them through dark, sensual depths, and a thrilling adventure.

Dysphoria by Hildred Billings: A woman dealing with severe gender dysphoria approaches her wife to help her become more submissive. Unlearning twenty years' worth of repression, however, does not come without its sacrifices.

Not Your Damn Dom by Amy Valenti: After a disastrous mistake, Spencer swears off BDSM forever. When he falls in love again, he battles the urge to introduce Alex to his Dom side. Can he trust himself with a submissive's safety again?

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Friday, June 27, 2014

OUT NOW: "JOSHOKU." Book 6 of Ren'Ai Rensai

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A year after "KOIBUMI.", I am now pleased to announce the return of the RR overworld series. "JOSHOKU." takes us back once again the 90s in Japan, focusing on the period of time when Reina and Aiko realize the true potential of their lives together.

Please enjoy the blurb and the excerpt below!

One year into their relationship, Reina and Aiko embark on a journey into the world of academia. For Reina it's about changing her situation in life, even it means returning to a world ran by a foreign religion and young women who claim to be both her best friends and worst enemies. For Aiko it's proving to her mother, to the world, and to herself that there is more to life than husband hunting. For them both it's late nights finding unconventional ways to study for tests as they find new reasons to love each other.

Adulthood lurks in every shadow, from coming to terms with mortality to straining against the shackles that threaten to keep their lives stagnant. Reina wants to find direction in her life; Aiko wants to control her own destiny. Together they want what will become the foundation of their relationship - love, safety, and the exploration of their burning joshoku, or the passion that leads one to women again and again. Even if one of them is an impostor herself.


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EXCERPT


            “Excuse me,” Aiko said, stopping a saleswoman and holding up a green bra. “Does this come in any other color?”
            While the saleswoman took the bra to go look in the back, Reina dangled a silky black bra and panty set in front of Aiko.
            “You should get this one,” she said, jerking the hanger back and forth. “I bet you’d look really sexy in a piece like this.”
            Aiko glanced around the shop, only temporarily relieved when she saw no one paid them any mind. The cramped store was stuffed with racks of underwear and women talking over one another as the cars on the street drowned out their voices. Nothing could drown out Reina’s voice, however. It was right in Aiko’s ear, taunting her with that seductive tone that had once awakened her inner lesbian.
            “I need something practical.” Aiko tried to be collected, but whenever her girlfriend teased her like that, she turned into jelly. She busied her hands by flipping through a rack she had already inspected twice before. “That material would scratch my skin if I wore it all day.”
            “You’re not supposed to wear it all day. This is shit you wear to make you feel sexy and to make your girlfriend want to jump your bones.”
            “Like you need help with that.”
            The saleswoman came back with a pink version of the bra Aiko liked. “Would you like me to open a changing room for you?”
            “That would be great, thanks.”
            Reina stayed out of the changing area while Aiko was shown into the one at the far end of the hall. After locking the door, she stripped off her top and the one bra she had left that Reina had yet to destroy with her pawing. One strap drooped down her arm as she admired – as in criticized – her figure in the mirror.
            Have I gained weight? Aiko turned to her side and stuck her leg up in the air behind her. It made her back suck in and flatten her stomach. Maybe not. Skin stretched across her abdomen as she twisted it around to get a better look. By the time she decided she was not obese – yet – both of her bra straps had fallen down, reminding her of what she came in there for.
            Three bras hung from the door, each one the usual style and colors Aiko liked. When a woman knows what she likes... She hopped up and grabbed the pink bra she wanted.
            Trying on clothing of any kind was a test in patience. There was getting the damn things on; making sure they fit snugly, but not too snugly; checking to see that the color matched her skin tone; looking for any spots that would itch or irritate her later; turning in every direction to catch the best angles; pretending to be a model in a sexy magazine. Aiko spun on her heels and laughed in frivolity as someone pounded on the door.
            “I’m fine!” she called, assuming it was the saleswoman. “I’ll be out in a bit.”
            Another thump. “Ai-chan!” It was Reina. “Open up! I wanna show you something.”
            “Eh?” Aiko snatched her shirt and held it up to her chest. Slowly, as if the dressing room was full of people ready to check out her nipples, Aiko eased the door open and gazed at her girlfriend through the crack.
            Reina swung the door open and marched into the changing room, arm laden with bras.
            “Are you trying something on?” Aiko dropped her shirt and bent to pick it up again. When she stood, she saw her girlfriend latching the door shut, a sinister smile on her visage. “I didn’t think you wore...”
            The sexy black bra popped into her face. “I brought some stuff for you to try on.”
            “What? Me?” Aiko backed against the mirror. “I already have things to try on.”
            The black bra did a dance in the air, and puppet master Reina continued, “Nothing sexy.”
            “I’m not buying anything sexy like that.”
            “Aw, come on, you’re not even gonna try them on? How boring.” Reina dropped the bra to her side. I’m still not used to this haircut. If it weren’t for those thin lips and the usual clothes Reina wore, Aiko would not recognize her without long hair. “Not even for me?”
            “Why would I do it for you?”
            “Harsh.”

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Thursday, May 29, 2014

New S&M Anthology "MASTER OF DESIRE" featuring yours truly~ (Out Now)

Exciting announcement! I am fortunate enough to be in the anthology MASTER OF DESIRE: A Domination and Submission Romance Anthology being put out by Excessica. In it I have included a special short story version of “NIGOU.” that is slightly different from the full novel version. 
The story is called “MASTER/MISTRESS” and is about what you can probably guess. ;) 
I am pretty sure that all the other stories except mine are M/f, but if you don’t care about that and just want some great S&M romance, check it out! For a limited time it’s 99 cents!
Full blurb and buy links below! (Also check out the awesome RAFFLECOPTERwhere you can win up to $50 in Amazon gift cards!)
His every touch an imprint, His every word a potent command. To become His—both body and soul—is not to be owned. It is to be truly accepted. To belong. Only a precious few know the ecstasy of giving themselves over to the ultimate Dom. 

Ten bestselling domination and submission romance authors. Nine sensual novelettes of seduction and submission in one collection. The Master of Desire awaits. 

Stealing Aubrey by Candy Quinn - He needs to have her, to possess her. Just barely into adulthood, the beautiful young woman is screaming for him to take her, utterly. With his new wealth, he plans to do just that. 

As He Bids by Olivia Rigal - Applying for a summer internship at an upscale auction house just because she has a mad crush on one of the bosses, may be Career Fail 101 for Hannah. 

 Please, Maestro by Penelope L’Amoreaux - Once a promising cellist, Avery lost her hearing and her dreams until her conductor offers to teach her to play again. Can she withstand his harsh lessons or will she be undermined by her own desires? 

Anything He Requires by Michelle Fox - She thinks it’s just another job when wealthy businessman Jacob Daniels hires her to train his willful puppy, but the way he crushes her lips when they kiss says otherwise. Daniels has set his sights on dominating her, undertaking an irresistible seduction that leaves Jessica willing to do anything he requires. 

Becoming Jane by Jordan Bell - Avery doesn’t want the life her family insists on. She wants Oliver, the mysterious Dom she’s never met but who knows her heart. He can’t give her forever, but when she asks, he gives her one night. 

Master/Mistress by Hildred Billings - Two women, one exploring her true gender in the bedroom and the other an overworked businesswoman in the need of escape, embrace a domme/sub relationship under the darkness of Tokyo’s hot nights. 

Submission Therapy by Katie Salidas and Willsin Rowe - Billionaire Natasha Blakely is a control freak, fraying at the edges. When her therapist prescribes Submission Therapy she reluctantly agrees. Will she learn the sublime ecstasy of true submission? 

 The Master’s Exploits: Night Two by Jessi Bond - Dalton Alexander: alpha male, experienced dominant, alluring Master. He wants to turn his memoirs into erotic BDSM fiction, and ghostwriter Grace Reynolds is just the woman for the job. 

Unwritten Submission by Elsa Day - Amy has managed to sneak into the most secretive club in town. The story would save her journalism job, but her plans change when she meets J. He wants to be her new Dom. But will Amy submit? 

Friday, May 9, 2014

OUT NOW: "NIGOU." A REN'AI RENSAI: GAIDEN release!

For two years Jun and Reina have had an agreeable arrangement: when it’s convenient, they’ll meet up and have a good time together. “Good time,” however, has changed over the past few months. Beaten with stress from her job and the dilemmas of her primary relationship, Jun has decided she wants Reina to be more than someone she meets for hours of passion between the sheets. To be more than a “nigou,” or the dirty mistress on the side.

Emotional commitment isn’t exactly something Reina can subscribe to. She’s used up her intimacy tokens with her wife Aiko, and now the idea of bringing another serious woman into her love life isn’t exactly her idea of fun! Not to mention Jun’s younger girlfriend Saya, who is less than keen on the idea of multiple partners, but willing to make it work.

As they tiptoe on the edge of polyamory, both Reina and Jun have to decide what they want from each other - and from their primary partners. What they discover is the give and take that can happen beyond the scope of a casual relationship. How two women can find the therapy missing from their lives in the arms of a nigou.

"NIGOU." takes place from May - September, 2014

I know a lot of you have been waiting for this one! Not only is it the longest RR universe novel yet, but it's very, ah, intense, if you catch my drift! 

Friday, February 28, 2014

OUT NOW: "USOTSUKI." A Ren'Ai Rensai: Gaiden Novel

The REN’AI RENSAI: GAIDEN (Another Story) series is a companion piece to the main Ren’Ai Rensai series focusing on alternate views to stories you’ve already enjoyed and couples deviating from the series’ norms.
"USOTSUKI."
Approximately 76,000 words
Fate struck Haruka and Kaori one warm spring day not so many years ago. Without question they accepted their destiny, swearing to love each other and to forge a new life built on their unwavering devotion for what they had.

Kaori, the dutiful career woman who always has her eyes on the next stage of her life; Haruka, the easy-going musician who will do anything to support her girlfriend’s ambitions. One of them is lying. Maybe they both are. It’s these amassing lies about their families, their friends, and their jobs that will lead them to discovering who is the biggest “usotsuki,” or liar, between them.

Their relationship might just survive it

"USOTSUKI." takes place from May, 2010 - September, 2013

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             The woman picked up the cup with both hands and blew the steam off the top. The way her lips made a delicate O shape, pushing that pink gloss outward, was too enticing for Haruka to stare at directly. She kept her eyes on the white saucer on the counter as the customer sipped the tea… but Haruka made the grievous mistake of looking up as the woman swallowed.
            “Oh, that is lovely,” came a satisfied voice. “How much is it?”
            Haruka told her the price, and the woman quickly made the decision to purchase a small package. She rang her up on the register, taking the woman’s money while trying to keep her hand from passing over those manicured fingers.
            “By the way,” the woman began again, taking her receipt and her bag by the handles, “is that Ephemeral’s latest CD?”
            Haruka’s jaw nearly fell off her face. “You know Ephemeral?” The rock tunes held a steady undercurrent to their conversation, the lead singer’s scratchy vocals belting out a chorus about a crimson-colored love affair.
            The woman nodded. “They’re one of my favorite bands.”
            No way. This dainty looking woman, with the pressed outfit and perfect hair and make-up? She was into rock music like Ephemeral’s? “They are my favorite band right now,” was all Haruka could say.
            “Are they?” The woman clutched her bag to her chest. Her curving chest, as Haruka couldn’t help but notice. This was the kind of day that could only get better or worse, depending on if she lived in a comedy or a tragedy.
            “Yeah… did you hear that they just transferred to a major label?”
            “Absolutely. Everyone in their fan club heard about it.”
            “You’re in their fanclub?” Not even Haruka bothered with that. Sometimes her favorite bands came and went so quickly that she learned to not join fanclubs until she was sure they would be around for a while – or that she would be interested in them. “I only heard about it online, on their website.”
            “Uh huh…” The plastic handles of the bag tumbled in the woman’s hands, stretching as her skin turned red. Is she nervous? Haruka hid her hands behind her back, so the customer couldn’t see her nervous habits, like flicking her fingernails. “Actually,” the woman then continued, with a meek voice, “I have tickets to their show this Saturday. The fanclub only live celebrating their anniversary and getting onto a major label… I have an extra ticket… but nobody to go with…”
            Haruka nodded. Then the words sank in.
            The entirety of her thoughts, feelings, and words were lodged in her throat, blocking her ability to swallow or speak. Is she asking me out? That pretty side-glance, that charismatic smile, those fluttering lashes… this felt like something straight out of a teen drama, where the (bluntly heterosexual) female lead waited for the good-looking hero to ask her out. Does that make me the good-looking hero?
            Behind her, the lyrics from Ephemeral’s song about knee-shaking love played out. “Take the one you love by the shoulders and tell them that you love them.” That was the lead singer’s way of expressing that sort of desire. Haruka, however, would not take this young woman by the shoulders and scream, “Yes!” even though she wanted to. Instead she said, “I hope you can find someone to go with.”
            A flash of disappointment covered the woman’s complexion. “Maybe…” It was replaced with deep, churning red. “Are you available Saturday night?”
            She’s asking me out! Heart pounding so hard that it almost bruised her ribs, Haruka’s mouth went dry. Say yes, idiot!
            “I’m, uh… Douyoubi kana…” Haruka scrambled to remember what she was possibly doing that Saturday. She had to work during the day, and at night her father was hosting a small party with his friends, but… Nothing important. Still, how could she blurt out yes to a complete stranger? She didn’t know this woman from the Empress. There were friends of Haruka’s who would have no problem saying yes – many of them foreign and from countries where being forward like that was permissible. But Haruka still had it pounded into her head that she should be demure, in a fashion. Like this woman before her, who managed to ask her out while looking like a sweet thing who knew not what she did. I am pretty sure she knows.
            “Oh, you must be busy. Please forget I asked.” The woman turned and took a step.
            “No, wait!” Haruka lunged across the counter, one hand extended toward the woman. “I mean… I’m not busy. If you really can’t think of anyone else to go with…”
            The woman glanced over her shoulder, relieved. I almost ruined her day. And almost ruined her own.
            A cell phone came out of the woman’s purse. “Let me get your number… Miss…”
            “Huh? Oh!” Haruka pulled out her phone. “My name is Haruka. Haruka Kitamoto.”
            The woman typed into her phone. “Nice to meet you, Haruka-san. My name is Kaori.”
            Kaori. Haruka remained in a daze as she inputted the woman’s name and number into her phone. That’s a pretty name. It evoked the word for “scent,” perfumed, laced in lavender, like the tranquil moments after a bath when everything was clean. But the wink Kaori gave her as she waved goodbye and left was anything but clean.
            “See you Saturday, Haruka-san,” she said, hand over the doorknob. The bells jingled as the door opened. “I look forward to it.”
            Haruka stood as if living in a dream. When her father returned minutes later, he asked her what was wrong, and all she could say was, “I hope you don’t need me Saturday night.”
 

Friday, December 27, 2013

OUT NOW! "AITAI." Book 2 of JIAI JOUWA

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The second (and for now, final) installment of the JIAI JOUWA spinoff series is out today! Check out the blurb an an excerpt below!

Ten years ago Saya escaped a forced marriage in the house of Hara, granting herself the freedom to follow her will. And for ten years she has been content to live a life of near poverty and menial labor in exchange for being the master of her own destiny. That was until she met Jun, the hotel heiress who stole her heart and taught her what love and protection could feel like.

Now Saya finds herself torn between two worlds: her girlfriend's reality, comprised of formalities and endless wealth, and her own head, which pulls her to the isolation of the Japanese countryside. Jun wants her to settle in the city, yet Saya is not sure she can live with the pressures to conform to high society.

In the midst of this dilemma is the one thing Saya wants more than anything else - a divorce from the man who tried to ruin her life. But the leash connecting her to the Haras runs long, and Saya soon finds that her heart's call of "Aitai," or "I want to see you," not only echoes for Jun when they are apart, but for the people who forced her to become the woman she is today.

"AITAI." takes place from October, 2013 - May, 2014



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            “Let’s get out of here,” Saya said, resting her chin on Jun’s shoulder. “I’ve always wanted to make love in front of a fireplace.” No better time than when they were staying in a cabin with one of those very things.
            “And you say we’re Westernized?”
            “What? Haven’t you done it before?”
            Jun scoffed. “In front of a fireplace? No, I can’t say I have.”
            Saya lifted herself out of her seat so she could nip her teeth against her girlfriend’s earlobe. Do anything to her ear and she’s mine all night. Indeed, Jun shuddered and placed her hand on Saya’s thigh. “There you go. First time for everything.”
            Ehhh.” Jun put down her wine glass. “Oh, that reminds me. I have something for you.”
            Saya echoed her girlfriend’s ehh as Jun reached into her inside jacket pocket. She pulled out a little black felt box, the kind coming from…
            All of the flirtations, the naughty desires disappeared from Saya’s system the moment she recognized such a box. Don’t you do it. Not here. Not in a place like this. Not in front of these people. Not ever! Saya looked around, wondering if any of the other Isoyas saw this. No. They were all preoccupied. Deliriously preoccupied.
            Oi, what’s that look for?” Jun touched Saya’s chin. “You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
            “Jun…” Saya scooted away from the table, almost knocking over her wine glass.
            A lurch forward and Jun caught it, rousing the attention of Fujiko from across the room. The older woman studied her niece’s table with mild interest before conjuring a laugh for the man whose lap she sat on.
            The black jewelry box remained on the table. Jun snatched it up and opened it without the fanfare Saya expected from a proposal, or a “just because” gift that cost millions of yen.
            Inside was a keychain.
            Nani kore?” Saya settled back into her seat, taking the box from her girlfriend’s hand. Jun looped her arm around Saya’s chair, and by extent her shoulders, leaning next to her and pointing to the charm on the chain.
            “I found this while cleaning out some things in my condo. Do you know what it is?”
            Saya picked up the keychain, fingering the charm. It was some kind of Chinese character, looping and lining a single word that Saya could not read. She didn’t know if that was because she was a high-school dropout or because she didn’t study archaic kanji like her girlfriend did.
            “It’s an old kanji for au. Before it was simplified to the one we use today.” Jun’s slim finger outlined the parts of the keychain that represented the modern kanji, taken straight from this older one. “I don’t remember why I got it a long time ago, but I want you to have it.”
            Nande?” Saya didn’t mean to indirectly reject her girlfriend’s gift, but she didn’t get it.
            “Because when you’re gone, I want you to know that I want to see you.”
            Jun drew lines down the length of Saya’s short hair while her girlfriend stared at the charm. “Aitai,” she said beneath her breath. Just what she needed. A constant reminder that she missed her girlfriend.
            “Here, give me your cell phone.”
            “What? Why?”
            “Because that’s what you do with charms, silly.”
            Saya stared at her through the corner of her eye as she dug into her bag and pulled out her cell phone, currently turned off. As it has been since I met up with her. Jun snatched it from her hand and looped the string of the keychain through the tiny hole notched into the plastic case.
            “There.” Jun dangled the keychain in front of Saya’s face. “I should give you presents more often.”
            She wrapped both arms around Saya and brought her in for a kiss, the heaviest, and hardest in front of the family like that. No, no you really don’t have to give me presents. Saya endured the kiss until Jun pulled away and drank the last of her wine.
            It took a few more kisses and covert touches to the thigh and beneath her shirt to make Saya remember what she wanted again. Her. I want her. Not presents, not desserts, not even a rug in front of a fireplace, which she was only half serious about. No, all she wanted was Jun, the woman she missed when they were apart. Not that she needed more reminders of that.

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